Enlightened to be a Light Messenger 開啟傳光願
July 6
Morning reflection
Enlightened to be a Light Messenger
This morning, during the Standing Like a Pine meditation period, my body became very warm immediately, and tried to keep a steady feeling there.
During the guidence Lao Shi gave, a few things that were said in the blessing stood out. One of them was that I will be spreading the Universal Love Light to those all around me. I find that this is extremely helpful and would make the world a better place with this gift and knowledge we learned. The other one was that with us, there will be more lighthouses of people with this knowledge making the world a better place, providing more hope for humanity.
Although I didn’t feel much, I know in my heart that I have the ability to spread this gift we received.
Afternoon reflection
Eyes Open with Wisdom
Until now, I realized that the success and the wealth that I’ve always dreamt of were just to prove myself. In a sense, I was locked in my own jail trying to change the cement into gold. This made me open my eyes and understand that whatever I am doing, whatever I need to do must be for my spiritual development.
Free with Happiness
The root of this problem began in high school or perhaps even earlier from the bullying that I endured and dealt to others. I realized that money and my physical strength were a way of proving my superiority.
There is nothing wrong with wanting to be successful. However the main reason behind should be more about oneself and their goal for happiness. From this day onward, everything should be for my spiritual development instead of proving myself to others.
My goal should be the pursuit of happiness instead of cold-hard cash. Today I experienced something truly amazing and powerful. Next time, I must find out what makes me happy and strive for it.
July 7
Morning reflection
Proud of Myself
This morning, it felt like the time passed a lot faster than usual. We stood for approximately ninety minutes with Lao Shi’s guidance. This was extremely helpful because of my concentration time span is unfortunately not very long.
I stood for the entire period that I am proud of, but there can be more improvement in the future. What I mean by improvement is that I can get into a deeper feeling.
Afternoon reflection
Spending More Time with My Father
Today I finally discovered why my left knee was in a lot more painful. The reason behind the pain can be traced back to my father.
For the longest time, I was afraid to talk to my father, whether it be about money, relationships, feelings. As I traced back a lot further, I realized it was because of my fear of being rejected. The word NO often scares me and stops me from doing what I wanted. Then, Lao Shi asked me, “How do you plan on solving this problem?” I immediately saw myself sitting in my living room at the tea table with my father. And later on, Lao Shi connected with my energy, and pointed out that my father is actually very lonely. I also thought that he had my mom, but actually it’s not the case. Now, my father and my sister’s relationship is very shaky.
What I learned from this is that my dad needs me and the way to solve this problem is to spend more time with my father and to talk about our communication problem.
Now that I know this problem, my knee felt a lot better. I will now spend a lot more time with my father and simply just talk our issues away.
【中文翻譯】
7月6日
早上沉澱
開啟傳光願
今天早上立如松的時候，我的身體立即熱起來，希望維持這個感覺。
老師講課時，我對老師在祝福時所講的幾樣東西印象特別深刻。其中一個是——老師說我會把大愛光傳給我身邊所有人，我覺得這很有幫助，因為透過這份禮物和我們所學會的，世界會變得越來越美好。另一個是——我們會讓更多人成為光塔，以我們所會的讓世界變得更美好，為人類提供更多希望。
雖然我沒有很多感覺，但是我心裡知道我有能力傳送這份我收到的禮物。
下午沉澱
了悟明白牢籠破
直到現在我才發現我一直夢寐以求的成功和財富只是用來證明自己。實際上，我把自己困在牢籠中，只是把水泥換成黃金而已。這讓我看清楚，我做的或需要做的一切一定要對我靈性成長有幫助。
心中快樂得自在
這問題源自高中或者更早以前，我忍受過和做過的霸凌行為。我知道金錢和力氣是我可以證明自己很了得的方法。
渴望成功沒有錯，但是背後的主要原因應該是為自己和以幸福為目標，今天開始，我的一切應該是為了靈性成長而不是為了要向人證明我自己。
我的目標應該是為了幸福，而不是現實的錢幣，今天我得到一個很棒而震撼的經歷，下一次我一定要找到會讓我幸福的東西，而以此為它努力。
7月7日
早上沉澱
為自己而自豪
今天早上，我覺得時間過得比平常快多，跟著老師的指引，我們大概站了九十分鐘，這對我非常有幫助，因為我的集中力不強。
我站完全程，為此我也覺得自豪，但我知道將來我可以做得更好，我指的更好的意思，是我可以進入到更深的感受。
下午沉澱
我要好好陪爸爸
今天我終於發現為什麼我的左膝蓋特別痛，痛的原因可以追溯到我的父親。
長久以來，我很害怕跟父親講話，無論是關於金錢、關係或感受。當我回想更久以前的時候，我發覺是因為我怕被拒絕，「不」這個字常常嚇到我，讓我不敢做我想做的事。跟著老師問我：「你打算怎麼解決這個問題？」我在老師帶領後，馬上看到我跟父親一起坐在客廳的茶桌旁。跟著，老師繼續跟我的能量連接，指出我父親其實很孤獨。我以往想，他有我媽媽，但事實上並不是這樣，而且現在我父親跟我姊姊的關係並不是很穩固。
我從這個學到，我爸爸需要我，而解決的方法是，要多陪我父親和跟他談我們溝通上的困難。
現在知道了這個問題，我的膝蓋好很多。我會花更多的時間陪我父親，好好地談我們之間的問題。